Winter-Autumn-Winter

Ach so! He he...Two weeks in Switzerland and Jun says it seems that we've been here for a very long time already. He's right, Manila life seems to be so quick and fast-paced compared to here. That's factoring in 3 minutes of sunlight lost everday as the northern hemisphere heads towards winter. Now, the sun sets at around 4.30.

But ever since we got here, the weather seems so confused. We touched down in Zurich on a Wednesday afternoon and the whole country (well, from Zurich to Fribourg, at least) was covered in snow. It lasted for a few more days then the snow disappeared. So now, we are like in late autumn weather--usually gloomy and humid. But luckily these past few days, it's been sunny.

But the weather's the least of my worries here. Came here to work and do research, but somehow, everyday is just full of sexual tension and emotional ambivalence. :-) Yes, i came back to the country where i fell in love again. But now, that love will most likely be unrequited.

And so the legend of Rizal ends with me here. The man was fabled to be quite a lover of many women in Europe. Ha ha! Last year, i came here for other reasons and not for love, but i came home with an almost euphoric sense of fulfillment. Foolish of me to be so naive when i have been forewarned by the very object of my affection: "Don't put your hopes so much on this relationship." she said. But i don't love half-heartedly. So this year, i came here for purely business reasons, and my love life forecast is bleak. Let God not allow it once more that i stumble again into some nice european girl who will later be harder to love from distant and foreign Philippines.

Yes, the days will be longer even though they are actually shorter. But the days will be incerasingly colder. It ain't just about physical intimacy but that warm and soothing feeling that you feel when you are loved.

No tears shed yet, just a heavy chest everyday.

And so, i face my first winter with great trepidation. I will see europe again in a new light...Finding romantic places for future romances, whoever she or they may be...Hoping that someday, the girl of my "tatay's dreams" (he he) and also of mine (siempre) will come with me to those places just for the sheer joy of seeing beautiful things together.

Ach so! My prologue ends.